No matter where I go, I feel people’s eyes on me.
Some might say I’m paranoid,and others might say I’m conceited. In reality, I know there might be many possible reasons that people are looking at me, all of which don’t equate to me being complete and total hot shit. I’m humble enough of a person to not think the absolute world of myself. Yet, for years now, wherever I go, I feel people watching.
I am not the type of girl who necessarily looks for attention every time I leave the house. Sure, if my friends and I are out and dressed in our cute little mini-skirts and high heel stilettos, looking for flattery, flirtatiousness, and fun, I might set out to turn heads. However, in my day-to-day life of going to Starbucks, going to class, going for a run in the park, going to a yoga class, going out to dinner or lunch with a friend, and going back to my dorm, I’m definitely not thirsty for an all-eyes-on-Ryder party.
Yet, it happens. Every. Single. Day.
A couple of years ago I read a blog written by a hot girl who “complained” about the stresses of going through life being beautiful. Social media tore this girl apart. When you’re a woman and you know you’re attractive you can rest assured you’ll be met with a predetermined set of reactions from people any time your attractiveness might be mentioned. The usual emotions from other women are that of envy and jealousy. When you’re a woman who is attractive and let’s the world KNOW she knows that she is attractive… watch out…. the full wrath is coming, particularly by other women who would rather tear an attractive woman down than show any sign of empathy or understanding for having something valuable to say about how her looks might directly impact the way she is able to walk through life.
Reading the “poor me, I’m beautiful” blog by that girl resonated with me, though. My entire life I’ve been complimented on my looks. From friends, to family, to acquaintances, to strangers, the topic of my beauty was ingrained in my mind from a very young age. From my straight teeth, my piercing eyes, my symmetrical face, and my petite frame, my good looks and all the compliments I receive about them have certainly given me a healthy dose of confidence at my young age. Having an older brother and two bratty sisters helped keep me grounded. Also, my parents, both good looking in their own right, kept us all humble through the very careful ways they taught us that looks are on the surface, but what you have in your mind, heart, and soul make up the complete person that you become.
My looks benefit me in many ways, but I’d be lying if I didn’t feel they also held me back at times. Sure, being beautiful gets me tons of calls on NiteFlirt which is fantastic for me. However, it also gets me unwanted attention by strangers who try to dissect me and make assumptions that while I have beauty to offer the world, I must in no way have anything else valuable to give.
The fact is, I love being pretty. However, more so I love that I am smart, funny, and a positive and energetic person to be around. My smile and eyes may visually radiate when I enter a room, but it’s my ability to hold a conversation about anything you can imagine. I have callers on NiteFlirt with whom I’ve spent hours discussing politics, literature, movies, relationships, philosophical issues, and so much more. While I am young, I have a mind that soaks in whatever I learn and when it comes to things I do not know, I have a youthful energy of inquisitiveness that wants to learn more and more every day.
There’s that old adage that you should “never judge a book by its cover.” I am a prime example of proving people’s assumptions wrong. I’ve been on many first dates where the guy expects me to sit there and look pretty and put out at the end of the night, but is surprised when I have interesting and witty things to say. It’s true that one’s physical appearance makes a first impression, but to me, I value my intelligence, personality, and charisma above my pretty face.
So, next time you see a hot girl on the street or all of the gorgeous images of drop dead beautiful flirts on NiteFlirt, don’t just assume that we only have our physicality and sexuality to offer to you. Phone sex and any intimate interactions in life can mean so much more than just a superficial physical level and while I am incredibly happy you love my face and get turned on by my body, I know that you will be missing the best parts of me if that’s all you choose to focus on during our time together.
Are you willing to delve deeper than your physical and sexual connection with your favorite phone sex girls? Go ahead and try me! Nothing is sexier than a man who tells me he fell in love with my mind over that of my hot, young bod. If you’ve been missing out in emotional and deep connections in your daily relationships or your phone sex relationships, it’s time to pick up the phone and call a girl who can offer you so much more than dirty talk and sexy pictures.
I will climb into your head and stimulate you in ways that will keep you craving for more. We’ll grow to have a mutual caring relationship for one another, where sex talk is just the cherry on top of a beautiful relationship that comes from taking the time to appreciate all parts of me rather than just what’s on the surface.